Le Fibromyalgia fail

So I was in hospital from Saturday to today for a ketamine infusion. It didn’t go as planned, I was supposed to get out tomorrow. My doctor says it’s a ketamine induced amnesia, I don’t remember from saturday until this morning when i woke up. Apparently I got a bit ‘manic’ last night, and called my mum wanting to know about laundry at about 4:30 in the morning, and was asking where Chris was. Then I called Chris wanting to know where he was, hung up, and then called him again.

I doon’t remember any of it. From Saturday, when we had a coffee at the cafe below the wards, to waking up with nurses all around me on Tuesday morning. Nothing. It’s really scary and confronting. they took me off the ketamine this morning and my doctor said I could either go back on it at a lower dose or go home tonight and try again later as some point. It really scared me and so I decided to go home. Pretty much decided I wanted to go home when I woke up. Not remembering things is really confronting and terrifying. I woke up with three days missing. It’s like a gap. I find myself looking at things, like a few comments on DA and flickr, things I’ve favourited. My phone log was actually the first thing I checked. I felt like Sherlock lol, only far less attractive. But it’s the single weirdest experience of my life, and nothing of how I expected it to be. It’s definitely not cool or fun.

I also spent aboot $1500 of my savings Melbourne on shit. I don’t even know what. Hopefully I can sell it all for as much as I bought it for. Mostly obitsus. Apparently I was raving onto mum and dad about plans for the market, so I might have got excited about that and bought some things to sell. I actually wrote some of it down but it’s mostly nonsensical, unintelligible rambling, and it has more typos than words spelled correctly so it’s pretty useless. I’m so insanely upset about it, but at least I’m not in debt. I’m glad it’s hopefully money I can get back.

But yeah, for the first real time, my fibromyalgia and dolls have clashed in a way I can’t control lol. Weeird.

1. clamwings said: Oh dear Aeryn! D8 Then you don’t remember our GTalk chat, that’s okay, I was just really happy to talk to you again, but we were just talking about how we were going to lol about dolls again. I really hope you pick up soon. <33333 ALL THE LOVE.
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3. muffinbitch said: Oh man, that is really scary! I hope you’re feeling okay now, and can sort out what you’ve bought. That must be so frightening to not remember at all. Wow. Uh, internet hugs from me? *huuuuuugs*
4. onnawufei said: Damn! O.O I don’t even know what else to say, just damn. Hopefully it doesn’t happen again.
5. boomdeyadah said: :[ Have all my internet comfort.
6. katewonder said: Jesus that is terrifying! I’m so sorry this all happened!
7. kawaiimon said: you don’t have confirmation emails of what you bought? D:
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